Wednesday, 18 May 2011
Minho at last
FINALLY! I've been so busy, im so scared I wont finish these and the canvas picture and the t-shirt in time for June! GOTTA WORK HARD! FIGHTING!
Thursday, 12 May 2011
Lifes stresses
Recently I've been faced with the possibility that I have ADHD, and truthfully I hope I have it as it means a reason for why I've been finding things so hard, and will mean I can finally get the help I need and medication to improve my learning, then maybe I can start achieving what I know I'm capable off without quite so much blood and tears being spilt.
School has been stressing me out incredibly, my exams start this Monday and in all honesty I have done FUCK ALL to prepare for them. Crap. I feel fairly confident for Art and science (funnily enough the two subjects im taking variations of for GCSE) but everything else. Nada. Zilch. Nein. *sigh* and then there's ICT coursework and Travel and Tourism subject (honestly the most boring subject in this entire world) I have the Shinee keychains I want to finish, AND the canvas painting, and the anime picture of them and all the little paintings, scetches and inkworks I want to complete before June.
And if that wasn't all enough, I have a freaking specialisim comic to try and complete, which is making me feel guilty enough. Really, my personal aspirations stress me out just as much, if not more, than schoolwork does. Which brings me onto the point that I really feel like i've lost my ability to write. I think I need to read more, but all vocabulary and sentence structure, spelling and grammar, have gone out of the window. Not the most usuful thing in the world considering I have an english exam as my FIRST exam. Great,
To top it all off, I have my weight loss preying on my mind. Am I eating too much? Doing enough exercise? Taking care of my body? i've started an exercise routine but it's gonna be hard to keep up with exams round the corner because it's so time consuming. Time consuming is good, if it doesnt mean less revision time or personal artwork. Or dancing. Because I really want to learn the dance to Genie by SNSD, I need to finish learning what a girl wants, I just want to be able to dance it through without having to refer to the original video T_T and I need to get around to filming it and putting it up for *prays* constructive critique.
And then I want to learn Lucifer by June 17th. Thats my goal.
Then I have the clothes I want to get preying on my mind. It's dumb I know, but dressing well is something that stresses me out. On my wish list:
Plain blue skinnies (i actually have NO plain skinnies)
Carrottops
A large top with writing on it
Cool t-shirt
Plain long sleeved top
Stripey t-shirt
Blouse
Cardigan
Black/denim high waisted shorts
Short leather jacket
and finally, loose cream jumper.
*sigh* money, money money.
It just eats at me, I want clothes but then I get them and I cant decide on an outfit, or I find Im missing something important so I cant wear something I want to,
DAMMIT! couldnt I just be skinny already so virtually anything would look good!
This is all frustrating me so much.
Why couldnt I just me one of those relaxed people who take life in their stride? Or someone who can actually manage to get off their asses and work when they need to.
In addition, my 2ne1 keychains are painfully bad but I cant figure out how to improve them, and because I did them so long ago there pretty much awfully put together layers wise, I may just spend an evening organising the layers, but then thats More time wasted.
I also really wanna get started on that Korean recipe and to get started revising my Japanese.
I NEED to manage my time better, but when I dont want to work. I find it SO hard to work well.
UGH @_@ heeelp!
School has been stressing me out incredibly, my exams start this Monday and in all honesty I have done FUCK ALL to prepare for them. Crap. I feel fairly confident for Art and science (funnily enough the two subjects im taking variations of for GCSE) but everything else. Nada. Zilch. Nein. *sigh* and then there's ICT coursework and Travel and Tourism subject (honestly the most boring subject in this entire world) I have the Shinee keychains I want to finish, AND the canvas painting, and the anime picture of them and all the little paintings, scetches and inkworks I want to complete before June.
And if that wasn't all enough, I have a freaking specialisim comic to try and complete, which is making me feel guilty enough. Really, my personal aspirations stress me out just as much, if not more, than schoolwork does. Which brings me onto the point that I really feel like i've lost my ability to write. I think I need to read more, but all vocabulary and sentence structure, spelling and grammar, have gone out of the window. Not the most usuful thing in the world considering I have an english exam as my FIRST exam. Great,
To top it all off, I have my weight loss preying on my mind. Am I eating too much? Doing enough exercise? Taking care of my body? i've started an exercise routine but it's gonna be hard to keep up with exams round the corner because it's so time consuming. Time consuming is good, if it doesnt mean less revision time or personal artwork. Or dancing. Because I really want to learn the dance to Genie by SNSD, I need to finish learning what a girl wants, I just want to be able to dance it through without having to refer to the original video T_T and I need to get around to filming it and putting it up for *prays* constructive critique.
And then I want to learn Lucifer by June 17th. Thats my goal.
Then I have the clothes I want to get preying on my mind. It's dumb I know, but dressing well is something that stresses me out. On my wish list:
Plain blue skinnies (i actually have NO plain skinnies)
Carrottops
A large top with writing on it
Cool t-shirt
Plain long sleeved top
Stripey t-shirt
Blouse
Cardigan
Black/denim high waisted shorts
Short leather jacket
and finally, loose cream jumper.
*sigh* money, money money.
It just eats at me, I want clothes but then I get them and I cant decide on an outfit, or I find Im missing something important so I cant wear something I want to,
DAMMIT! couldnt I just be skinny already so virtually anything would look good!
This is all frustrating me so much.
Why couldnt I just me one of those relaxed people who take life in their stride? Or someone who can actually manage to get off their asses and work when they need to.
In addition, my 2ne1 keychains are painfully bad but I cant figure out how to improve them, and because I did them so long ago there pretty much awfully put together layers wise, I may just spend an evening organising the layers, but then thats More time wasted.
I also really wanna get started on that Korean recipe and to get started revising my Japanese.
I NEED to manage my time better, but when I dont want to work. I find it SO hard to work well.
UGH @_@ heeelp!
Sunday, 8 May 2011
2ne1 Keychains and my room
Oh on a random note! I finally learn the 4minute dance to what a girl wants, its not well and I wanna practice a bit more until theres no hesitation but Ive learnt the steps now to finetune them ^^
And finally! I GET TO GO TO MY ROOM! HURRAY! In the attic, its finished! I spent the whole day painting it and wallpapering it yesterday (to the blissful sounds of Shinee, 4 minute, brown eyed girls and 2ne1) with my mum, now to put my posters up (Lm.c ! God i need a Shinee one >.< ) and to move all my stuff up there, then it should be ready for exams. I have my ADHD final assessment on tuesday but me and my mum are pretty sure I have it, so then I can get lots of helpful drugs to help me concentrate in exams and start working and stop procrastinating like im doing right now, at this very minute ahahahahaha.
Well I dont think there as bad as they could have been, i mean I did go over and neaten up a couple of things but because my layers were all horribly messed up and unnamed and such (I was 13 and they were my first time using layers) It was hard to edit properly without destroying the picture.
well
こんにちわときょうわあついですね！so enjoy <3
Onew finished
AAAAH I dont feel like Ive done any of them justice, (especially not Key's >.< ) but then again I am only 15, so I shouldnt be too harsh on myself right? RIGHT T_T should I sell them? almost feels wrong too, maybe 50p each.
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Onew draft
Ewwwwwwwwwww I cant wait till I can actually paint them by hand, I think it'll end up better and i can scetch them to get them right. ANyway this is a draft! anything wrong?
I tried to stay true to the scetch, i know his chin is a bit wonky. Im gonna fix >.<
Day 1 Art exam, Japanese UNI! Korean and SHining Shinee
So first i'll start with the Korean and SHinee as they are the funnest things to write about :), I really want to go on a Korean diet, but like i've said it just isnt going to work in my family so i've settled for the next best thing, my mums given me permission to try and find a couple of Korean recipes (breakfast, lunch and tea) that we'd all like and I give them to her with all the details (such as recipe step by step and the details of our local Korean store (H-mart) ) and then I make it with her supervising so i can practice. I cant wait, first dish will be Yukgaejing (i think thats right, its off the top of my head so :P ) spicy beef and vegetable soup OMNOMNOM Im loving vegetables at the moment!
Secondly, I really wanna learn some basic Korean and I need to be revising my japanese as ive forgotton EVERYTHING T_T I feel so awful about that, I still know basics though (@_@ painfully little now though :( ) Oh well Japanese starts again on Monday and until then i'll be searching Korean. I think Saraghae is love to a guy and Saranghamida is love said to a girl but thats probably absoloutely wrong XD
Thirdly, SHinee, My friend who also loves them has a family business of t-shirt printing HURRAH! amazing! we can have our own t-shirts made ^^ to show them our love for june, of course i still want to talk to my textiles teacher about making my own patterns (and I need to finish the Goddamn lolita dress eheh ^^' shizzle i better get that back to school before the examiner comes) but yeah its a good step. Hehe and Ive been watching flower boy generation with SHinee and 100% entertainment so much my brain only wants to speak korean and mandarin but it doesnt know how. Frustrating!
I watched an episode where Shinee made a surprise appearance in a korean highscool, if that had been me I would have died. I wish I was more courageous, and I really want to be able to dance! but cant find the time to go to a class T_T i would love to just wow SHinee with my dancing, its my dream! FIGHTING!
I daydreamed everything I would say and ideally how it would go ^^ Me: < OBSSESSED ^^''
On the Shinee keychains: Onew is almost finished! Hurrah only Minho and Ugh Jonghyun to go. Jonghyun is hard to draw :( I need to paint him. GODDAMIT i wanna draw them all so much but i have to refrain until ive finished the keychains, i need to give myself order. Darn i hope I have ADHD so i get those drugs for concentration >.<
Now onto AMAZING news, apparantly the Japanese embassy really want more British people studying Japanese uni's so they are setting up a scheme, my stepdad is finding out more but if i can go on that scheme, I will be so very, very happy!
Day1:
What I ate:
Breakfast: Wheetabix with banana and honey, tea
Lunch: an Apple and a strawberry milkshake
Tea: The rest of my banana, chicken stirfry with vegetables, Strawberries and creme freche.
Ugh I ate so much T_T ahaha but it was all healthy so, so far so good!
Exercise:
Walked to school XD Did 20 weights up and down, 15 lifting up and 20 situps. Learnt the dance to what a girl wants the whole way through >.< Not perfectly, now I need to refine, especially the chorus, yikes hand and leg coordination suck!
Will weigh myself on the 19th May :) to see if theres a difference!
My clothes from YesStyle should be arriving around then!
And finally the art exam (jeebus this is the longest thing ive posted so far hehe )
I think it went well, I managed to do the ZOmbie apocolaypse and finish the first girl and her monster (jeez i sound morbid :D ) and now Im just finishing off my mind maps T_T OTHEJOY!
So wish me luck for tomorrow, I will work hard to get that A*! Hopefully i have refined enough this time ¬¬ Friggin teachers. :P PSSSH
わたしわかなしいですよ！けどがんばります！
おやすみなさい！
Secondly, I really wanna learn some basic Korean and I need to be revising my japanese as ive forgotton EVERYTHING T_T I feel so awful about that, I still know basics though (@_@ painfully little now though :( ) Oh well Japanese starts again on Monday and until then i'll be searching Korean. I think Saraghae is love to a guy and Saranghamida is love said to a girl but thats probably absoloutely wrong XD
Thirdly, SHinee, My friend who also loves them has a family business of t-shirt printing HURRAH! amazing! we can have our own t-shirts made ^^ to show them our love for june, of course i still want to talk to my textiles teacher about making my own patterns (and I need to finish the Goddamn lolita dress eheh ^^' shizzle i better get that back to school before the examiner comes) but yeah its a good step. Hehe and Ive been watching flower boy generation with SHinee and 100% entertainment so much my brain only wants to speak korean and mandarin but it doesnt know how. Frustrating!
I watched an episode where Shinee made a surprise appearance in a korean highscool, if that had been me I would have died. I wish I was more courageous, and I really want to be able to dance! but cant find the time to go to a class T_T i would love to just wow SHinee with my dancing, its my dream! FIGHTING!
I daydreamed everything I would say and ideally how it would go ^^ Me: < OBSSESSED ^^''
On the Shinee keychains: Onew is almost finished! Hurrah only Minho and Ugh Jonghyun to go. Jonghyun is hard to draw :( I need to paint him. GODDAMIT i wanna draw them all so much but i have to refrain until ive finished the keychains, i need to give myself order. Darn i hope I have ADHD so i get those drugs for concentration >.<
Now onto AMAZING news, apparantly the Japanese embassy really want more British people studying Japanese uni's so they are setting up a scheme, my stepdad is finding out more but if i can go on that scheme, I will be so very, very happy!
Day1:
What I ate:
Breakfast: Wheetabix with banana and honey, tea
Lunch: an Apple and a strawberry milkshake
Tea: The rest of my banana, chicken stirfry with vegetables, Strawberries and creme freche.
Ugh I ate so much T_T ahaha but it was all healthy so, so far so good!
Exercise:
Walked to school XD Did 20 weights up and down, 15 lifting up and 20 situps. Learnt the dance to what a girl wants the whole way through >.< Not perfectly, now I need to refine, especially the chorus, yikes hand and leg coordination suck!
Will weigh myself on the 19th May :) to see if theres a difference!
My clothes from YesStyle should be arriving around then!
And finally the art exam (jeebus this is the longest thing ive posted so far hehe )
I think it went well, I managed to do the ZOmbie apocolaypse and finish the first girl and her monster (jeez i sound morbid :D ) and now Im just finishing off my mind maps T_T OTHEJOY!
So wish me luck for tomorrow, I will work hard to get that A*! Hopefully i have refined enough this time ¬¬ Friggin teachers. :P PSSSH
わたしわかなしいですよ！けどがんばります！
おやすみなさい！
Sunday, 1 May 2011
I feel stressed and my SHinee prep list
First the Shinee prep list, as Its a much happier topic hehe
FInish SHinee keychains
make SHinnee t-shirt
Doodle scetches of Shinee
paint Shinee(and by that i mean hand paint realistically onto a canvas, so i can hold it up and show them the picture ^^ UWAA I need to get working on that) its so annoying I have exams up till june so that I cant have more time to prepare Im going to have no free time with all my Shinee projects taking it up.
and I still dont revise enough T_T but then again, exams arent so important to me ... :S
And on that note, I feel hugely stressed because I have my art exam on TUESDAY T_T! and im still unprepared, desperately trying to fill my scetchbook.
Ive spent the past hour or so painting zombies to the beautiful voices of Shinee, 2ne1, beast and 4minute :P I go through every one of their songs over and over on a playlist loop whilst working on art.
On top of that, ive just realised i have a week until my english exam which im also entirelly unprepared for. OHTHEJOY why school why? @_@ I JUST WANNA DO ART AND DANCE! T_T WHy DO YOU INTEFERE?
and On a final note
I want to learn korean.badly! Anyone who knows please post and help me out!
FInish SHinee keychains
make SHinnee t-shirt
Doodle scetches of Shinee
paint Shinee(and by that i mean hand paint realistically onto a canvas, so i can hold it up and show them the picture ^^ UWAA I need to get working on that) its so annoying I have exams up till june so that I cant have more time to prepare Im going to have no free time with all my Shinee projects taking it up.
and I still dont revise enough T_T but then again, exams arent so important to me ... :S
And on that note, I feel hugely stressed because I have my art exam on TUESDAY T_T! and im still unprepared, desperately trying to fill my scetchbook.
Ive spent the past hour or so painting zombies to the beautiful voices of Shinee, 2ne1, beast and 4minute :P I go through every one of their songs over and over on a playlist loop whilst working on art.
On top of that, ive just realised i have a week until my english exam which im also entirelly unprepared for. OHTHEJOY why school why? @_@ I JUST WANNA DO ART AND DANCE! T_T WHy DO YOU INTEFERE?
and On a final note
I want to learn korean.badly! Anyone who knows please post and help me out!
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