Recently i've been diagnosed with ADHD and this means i have to take concerta, one of the side effects is a loss of appetite and as i want to lose weight anyway i've been losing weight, i really want to get to 8 stone but ridiculously everyones spazzing coz i lost 3lbs in a week (i'm a little under 9 at the moment) i still have fat bits so it's not like im seriouslty skinny, T_T but APPARANTLY! if i keep on losing weight i won't get the concerta, it's ridiculous, choose between getting help with ADHD or choose between having my body the way i want? it's stupidly unfair D:
*sigh*
Adios. *crawls off to die*
Sunday 3 July 2011
Thursday 16 June 2011
SHinee painting and life update.
SO i know i have all of three followers none of which really seem to follow me :P *shrug* but i felt like updating if only for no other reason than to organise my own thoughts a little
Ok so firstly school has totally calmed down which makes me feel 100 times better, I have my ADHD assessment this friday so that should help tooo. Even though techinically we aren't allowed to be on study leave our school has stopped checking whose in or not so on days when i have no exams or lessons for subjects not yet finished I dont have to go in at all, or if i only have lessons in the afternoon i go in late and if i only have them in the morning well, then i go in and just waltz right back out once im done, same with if i only have an exam to be in for. Its great, the teachers 'dont see us' leaving :P and we just go out through the reception and go home, or to starbucks or wherever we please ^^
Plus i only have two exams left HURRAH! so that makes me super happy. I'll start revising for them soon.
On the weight side, Im feeling totally proud of myself and i hope it continues, IT WILL CONTINUE! i mean i still havent gone past 9st its so frustrating im always 9st0lbs, i dont really go up or down from it, if anything i'll go up by 3lbs if im on, or weigh myself after eating, but the reason i feel proud? because ive finally started to seriously do something about it. I mean, i ache all over. I've got the biggest loser workout DVD and ive done it twice now, its seriously hard and im gonna keep doing workout 1 until it becomes easy then move on to workout 2, i will achieve that perfect body! and food wise, its hard not to snack from boredom but im managing, i had a slight lapse whilst on but thats over now! i'll just allow myself treats every now and then.
Job wise, i went up to camden yesterday and i really wanna work in cyberdog so i talked to someone,, they said hand in your CV and so im gonna do that later this month. :) Also looking at working in waterstones or waitrose if that doesnt work out
Appearance wise, I CAN FINALLY DYE MY HAIR! HELL YEAH !!! UHUH! after the 22nd I can totally dye my hair :P i think...god i hope im allowed it for the leavers service, ive made arrangments to dye it for the 23rd and i think the service is later but if they dont let me go well then i know my mum will kick up a fuss, and my friends will and really its only one stupid ass teacher who'd make an issue, i reckon they'll let me, fingers crossed!
Secondly i gotta get £60 before 22nd JUly, because im gonna get my snakebites then :P im so excited im still a teeny bit unsure whether to do it, but yesterday in camden it felt so right so im gonna go for it!
Im just gonna go in, close my eyes, stick out my lip and deal. :P why before the 22nd of July? cause i need my awseoem friend there with me, she has a septum piercing and she was totally cool about it, so i need her there for moral support and she's going to brazil for a month from the 22nd so really i gotta do it before that i want her there. Which i do!
On news of Shinee, keychains are finished, T-shirts ready to print (or so my friend says) banners will be made on Saturday and the paintings being worked on Im worried it wont be finished by sunday but goshdarnit i will MAKE IT FINISHED!
Gottta strive hard to achieve what i want right? if it wasnt easy it wouldnt be worth it?
ON my stress list now is:
Learning Japanese
Starting kickboxing and Karate
Practicing my manga (PAGE ONE IS COMPLETE OF WHISPERINGS OF FATE< but sadly, i havent really been practicing drawing that much, manga wise i mean ^^)
however, i think i will worry about those things, AFTER exams
for now im just gonna enjoy all this freee time, revision starts monday :)
SHinee is on sunday.
Tomorrow is a musical with papa dearest
and today is painting, eating and watching T.V ^^
Thursday is my friends art exhibition and dying my hair
and everyday is workout day :P (cept sunday XD)
on sunday i shall simply skip 100 times :)
Ok so firstly school has totally calmed down which makes me feel 100 times better, I have my ADHD assessment this friday so that should help tooo. Even though techinically we aren't allowed to be on study leave our school has stopped checking whose in or not so on days when i have no exams or lessons for subjects not yet finished I dont have to go in at all, or if i only have lessons in the afternoon i go in late and if i only have them in the morning well, then i go in and just waltz right back out once im done, same with if i only have an exam to be in for. Its great, the teachers 'dont see us' leaving :P and we just go out through the reception and go home, or to starbucks or wherever we please ^^
Plus i only have two exams left HURRAH! so that makes me super happy. I'll start revising for them soon.
On the weight side, Im feeling totally proud of myself and i hope it continues, IT WILL CONTINUE! i mean i still havent gone past 9st its so frustrating im always 9st0lbs, i dont really go up or down from it, if anything i'll go up by 3lbs if im on, or weigh myself after eating, but the reason i feel proud? because ive finally started to seriously do something about it. I mean, i ache all over. I've got the biggest loser workout DVD and ive done it twice now, its seriously hard and im gonna keep doing workout 1 until it becomes easy then move on to workout 2, i will achieve that perfect body! and food wise, its hard not to snack from boredom but im managing, i had a slight lapse whilst on but thats over now! i'll just allow myself treats every now and then.
Job wise, i went up to camden yesterday and i really wanna work in cyberdog so i talked to someone,, they said hand in your CV and so im gonna do that later this month. :) Also looking at working in waterstones or waitrose if that doesnt work out
Appearance wise, I CAN FINALLY DYE MY HAIR! HELL YEAH !!! UHUH! after the 22nd I can totally dye my hair :P i think...god i hope im allowed it for the leavers service, ive made arrangments to dye it for the 23rd and i think the service is later but if they dont let me go well then i know my mum will kick up a fuss, and my friends will and really its only one stupid ass teacher who'd make an issue, i reckon they'll let me, fingers crossed!
Secondly i gotta get £60 before 22nd JUly, because im gonna get my snakebites then :P im so excited im still a teeny bit unsure whether to do it, but yesterday in camden it felt so right so im gonna go for it!
Im just gonna go in, close my eyes, stick out my lip and deal. :P why before the 22nd of July? cause i need my awseoem friend there with me, she has a septum piercing and she was totally cool about it, so i need her there for moral support and she's going to brazil for a month from the 22nd so really i gotta do it before that i want her there. Which i do!
On news of Shinee, keychains are finished, T-shirts ready to print (or so my friend says) banners will be made on Saturday and the paintings being worked on Im worried it wont be finished by sunday but goshdarnit i will MAKE IT FINISHED!
Gottta strive hard to achieve what i want right? if it wasnt easy it wouldnt be worth it?
ON my stress list now is:
Learning Japanese
Starting kickboxing and Karate
Practicing my manga (PAGE ONE IS COMPLETE OF WHISPERINGS OF FATE< but sadly, i havent really been practicing drawing that much, manga wise i mean ^^)
however, i think i will worry about those things, AFTER exams
for now im just gonna enjoy all this freee time, revision starts monday :)
SHinee is on sunday.
Tomorrow is a musical with papa dearest
and today is painting, eating and watching T.V ^^
Thursday is my friends art exhibition and dying my hair
and everyday is workout day :P (cept sunday XD)
on sunday i shall simply skip 100 times :)
Sunday 29 May 2011
MY DANCE D:
so here is the link to it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8is73y7Bcwput on twice for ensurance! XD im afraid for feedback but really i doubt it'll get more than like 90 views and 1 comment at most XD
Tuesday 24 May 2011
Hey there Shawol's! Please follow me *desperation* XD
So this is a post to try and catch the attention of the many Shinee fans i know exist out there! I should probably post a link to my blog in more places to get attention XD why? because im bored of posting stuff noone reads :P and i would love more feedback for my keychain project, I'm already happily overwhelmed with the support they have gotten from Deviant art, even though its only a couple of favs for each one and the odd comment here and there, it still makes me very happy *is easily pleased*.
So please Shawol's, if you stumble across this post or blog, it would make my day to have someone to talk to about Shinee with. i'm severely lacking in friends who love them like I do.
Every day at the moment my thoughts look like this:
Crap! school! Shinee shinee shinee shinee crap! exam, shinee shinee shinee, Japan, Korea, Shinee Shinee shinee, art, weight, Shinee Shinee Shinee pfffffft
and i only have one friend (who i dont see that often T_T ) who likes them!" and she's not even obsessed with them like I am :( What a tough life
! so anyway here's a list of the sort of things i'll be posting:
Scetches of Shinee members
An anime picture of them
Keychains (one more to go: Jonghyun)
Links to DANCES i cover! :D XD im learning dance for the first time EVER! so please, they will probably start of bad, but I hope to improve a lot.
A painting of them
Inking's of them
Hand and digital portrait painting's (a lot of Taemin ^^')
Maybe even the odd ol story about them.
Links to new songs
Merchandise talk (im making a Shinee t-shirt)
and my textile's adventure in which I try and recreate outfits I adore that Shinee have worn!.
Also look out for some 2ne1 stuff. 2ne1 are my favourite girl band! so expect stuff on them too!.
In addition, pictures of clothes I have brought that copy Shinee's styling.
and in the future, there is the possibility of my comic called 'Stardom' being posted, which is basically about Shinee and their interactions with my character's band called Zombie S, yes it is a bit of shameless wishful thinking that I could become a famous Kpop Idol XD im not even korean, but we all have impossible dreams right?
On a side note XD
it's my birthday soon :D looking forward to it, yet nervous I will be dissapointed, my mum didnt seem to have a clear idea of what I want this year. But hopefully I will be pleasantly surprised ^^ FInished exams for this week anyhow! YES NO MORE ENGLISH T_T *tears of joy* and so, I enter the half term, after which I will probably die of stress, but for now, take each day at a time and enjoy life as it is.
I aim to have the Keychains finished by the end of May, and to finish the canvas picture of Shinee, the Shawol t-shirt and to have learn the dances to Lucifer and Replay by June 19th. :) Please wish me luck!
Mata ne!
So please Shawol's, if you stumble across this post or blog, it would make my day to have someone to talk to about Shinee with. i'm severely lacking in friends who love them like I do.
Every day at the moment my thoughts look like this:
Crap! school! Shinee shinee shinee shinee crap! exam, shinee shinee shinee, Japan, Korea, Shinee Shinee shinee, art, weight, Shinee Shinee Shinee pfffffft
and i only have one friend (who i dont see that often T_T ) who likes them!" and she's not even obsessed with them like I am :( What a tough life
! so anyway here's a list of the sort of things i'll be posting:
Scetches of Shinee members
An anime picture of them
Keychains (one more to go: Jonghyun)
Links to DANCES i cover! :D XD im learning dance for the first time EVER! so please, they will probably start of bad, but I hope to improve a lot.
A painting of them
Inking's of them
Hand and digital portrait painting's (a lot of Taemin ^^')
Maybe even the odd ol story about them.
Links to new songs
Merchandise talk (im making a Shinee t-shirt)
and my textile's adventure in which I try and recreate outfits I adore that Shinee have worn!.
Also look out for some 2ne1 stuff. 2ne1 are my favourite girl band! so expect stuff on them too!.
In addition, pictures of clothes I have brought that copy Shinee's styling.
On a side note XD
it's my birthday soon :D looking forward to it, yet nervous I will be dissapointed, my mum didnt seem to have a clear idea of what I want this year. But hopefully I will be pleasantly surprised ^^ FInished exams for this week anyhow! YES NO MORE ENGLISH T_T *tears of joy* and so, I enter the half term, after which I will probably die of stress, but for now, take each day at a time and enjoy life as it is.
I aim to have the Keychains finished by the end of May, and to finish the canvas picture of Shinee, the Shawol t-shirt and to have learn the dances to Lucifer and Replay by June 19th. :) Please wish me luck!
Mata ne!
Friday 20 May 2011
My school is so. So. so. English
LOOOOL! SO we all finished our exams for the week and we heard there was gonna be a surprise on thursday. We'd already had a free breakfast at the beginning of the week so as a joke me and my friends said, 'Oh i bet it'll be a free tea or something'
Science, last lesson our teacher tells us she's going to take us somewhere instead of to year assembly as we normally go to on a thursday.
Enter the refectory, what do we see? FREE TEA XD
Our refectory is pretty much a collection of about four to a table, some high, some low, some circle, some rectangular, and on every one was three plates, one with strawberries and scones on it, another with shortbread, another with cherries and grapes, and finally three chocolate YUM muffins sprinkled with icing sugar on the table next to them. Along with a mug of juice and someone going round pouring out tea for us,
LOOL
so we had afternoon scones and tea.
And today in textiles we had afternoon tea and shortbread.
Wow!
what can i say? I know for sure im in england when our school does this XD but it was nice, and as we left we all got a goody bag (haribo's, chocolate, A FREE PEN :D ) XD So cool. sometimes my schools OK. :)
Science, last lesson our teacher tells us she's going to take us somewhere instead of to year assembly as we normally go to on a thursday.
Enter the refectory, what do we see? FREE TEA XD
Our refectory is pretty much a collection of about four to a table, some high, some low, some circle, some rectangular, and on every one was three plates, one with strawberries and scones on it, another with shortbread, another with cherries and grapes, and finally three chocolate YUM muffins sprinkled with icing sugar on the table next to them. Along with a mug of juice and someone going round pouring out tea for us,
LOOL
so we had afternoon scones and tea.
And today in textiles we had afternoon tea and shortbread.
Wow!
what can i say? I know for sure im in england when our school does this XD but it was nice, and as we left we all got a goody bag (haribo's, chocolate, A FREE PEN :D ) XD So cool. sometimes my schools OK. :)
Wednesday 18 May 2011
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